Schazbot Q!

They are truly numbered now, and it’s only a matter of time.

“If you are not good enough for someone then that someone is not good enough for you.”

My Life

I don’t know how it got this way, but after 30 years, my life is pathetic. It’s a mess, a sad travesty of survival and loneliness. If I had the courage, I will end it. No more dealing with all this horidness around me. No more dealing with people who lie, and hurt, and pretend to love you for their own ends. No more bills, or worries, or debt incurred because of all the times you tried to help people. No more. I write this here, because none read, and thus my torment is safely my own, and the decision it leads to is one that I alone can follow or not follow. Grant me the courage, for I can’t stand all this pain anymore.

“Modern chivalry has nothing to do with equality of the sexes. Chivalry is expressing affection through thoughtful, courteous actions. Fuck, buy your own dinner. But I’ll hold open the door.”

“FMLYHM”

You could’ve been the real one
You could’ve been the one enough for me
You could’ve been the free one
(the broken down and sick one)
Remnant of a vacant life

You come around when you find me faithless
You come around when you find me faceless
Fuck me like you hate me
(dig it up and tear it down)
Dig it up and whore me out
Fuck me like you hate me
(dig it up and tear it down)
I love the sound when you come undone

You could’ve been the next one
(God only knows)
You could’ve been the one to comprehend me
You could’ve been the only one
(the broken down and sick one)
You could’ve been the one who i lie with

You come around when you finally face this
You come around when you find me faceless
Fuck me like you hate me
(dig it up and tear it down)
Dig it up and whore me out
Fuck me like you hate me
(dig it up and tear it down)
Don’t make a sound ‘til I come undone

You’ll never break me
You’ll never break me
You’ll never break me

You could’ve been the real one
You could’ve been the last one I’d lie with
You could’ve been the old one
I should’ve been the one who died

You come around when you finally face this
You come around when you find me faceless
Fuck me like you hate me
(dig it up and tear it down)
Dig it up and whore me out
Fuck me like you hate me
(dig it up and tear it down)
I love the sound when you come undone
Fuck me like you hate me
(fuck you like you hate me)
Fuck me like you hate me
(you’ll never break me)
Fuck me like you hate me
(dig it up, tear it down)
You’ll come around when you find me faceless

All It’ll Take

If I can change, I’ll succeed and fly. If I cannot, I shall simply die.

I finally, for the first time in a long time, see some light at the end of the tunnel. I just don’t know if I have what it takes to live to see it.

I was…

I was…hoping she was the one

I was…having fun with her having fun

I was…in love, so wonderfully in love

I am…dark now, as she is gone.